Inside Katie's Head

fuuuuck.

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 21:42:29 GMT

i don't want to go to school.
i don't want angie and doreen to leave me.
i don't want to take the bus.
frrrudge.

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 03:50:58 GMT

a waterballoon fight is in order.

sweet ass swing(s).

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 18:53:21 GMT

i lovez youz so much

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 04:12:48 GMT

fucking peacock is soooo cool. this is my contribution to my lj.. after my last post in february. so worth the wait.

baby baby baby

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 05:27:44 GMT

i do as ashley says.

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 04:56:32 GMT

me and dan rocked it in quebec.

doreen and i took turns joining the darkside and it kicked ass.

i revealed to you, the HORSE.

ha. reverse pie in the face.

oh, paris fair, so full of cowboys and pig races.

sparks flew in port dover.

the green ranger married the tampon bride.

i'm a godmama.

i'm pretty sure we hooked up after that, pretty sure.

i made it home.

and then i moved into a new house. stay tuned for pictures of the unicorn border.

you miss me so much.

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 03:36:00 GMT

hey girlies..

well it's my last night in florida and i really don't want to come home because this week of school is going to be the gayest thing to happen since brandon's love for titanic.

to ashley (no need to read this if you aren't her, its not juicy gossip.. or maybe it is): mr. rice seems to believe you have a "pretty good handle on the themes you would like to explore during the seminar". possibly before you vanish across the quebec border we could get together (monday night?) and really talk about what we're doing or discussing and pull this crap together. if you want you can send me an e-mail to read late sunday night.. or whatever. anything that could help. i sent my notes to mr. rice friday and he's sending me his comments sometime this weekend.. so i should have those tomorrow sometime, possibly not until i get home from florida.

anywho.. it's been a lot of fun down here, for the first time in a long time i've been able to let go of a lot of stress that has been building up since around october. there's something really nice about not having to wear a watch ever. love it. i have souvenirs for you guys.. they're not like superfantastic big surprises or anything, but i feel each one physically looks like you. ashley, you may later be offended by this comment.

i'll be home around 11 p.m. tomorrow and should be nice and tired for school monday and should also fail or barely pass my exercise science test. i'm not really looking forward to my return. at all.

ok. so that's about it.

i don't miss you or care to see any of you that much.
i'm not kidding. you are all unimportant.

kluvya4lyfebye

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 04:22:07 GMT

yay!!!!

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 00:38:47 GMT

on sunday, october 23 i will officially be a god mother. i'm so glad i go to church every sunday and youth group every single day because religon rulz. i feel proud.

kthx that's it!

i need i need i want i want

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 17:23:52 GMT

gah. i wrote this once already and it deleted it like the piece of crap it is. i'll try again.

i want to stop having tiny heart attacks.
i want to dip my feet into the pool once more. (too late)
i want to get on the plant to sanibel and maybe never come back.
i want to go out for dinner with the girls.
i want the leaves to fall down all around meee.
i want to keep having sexy dreams.
i want to dance and never get tired.
i want to have a baby. the virgin mary totally had jesus without losing her cardinal treasure, why not me?!
i want to feel as comfortable as i do now, always.
i want to be a homewrecker, so to speak.
i want to tell everyone at work that ken collects moths. FREAK.
i want my unicorn to ram annoying people in the sides.
i want a unicorn who is mean spirited (see above).
i want to go apple picking.
i want somebody to ask me to prom. what can i say, i have to have sex in a motel with somebody. might as well be my prom date.

that's all for now. I FEEL REAL GOOD. kbye.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 02:49:11 GMT

i'm a nervous wreck. bulldoze me. thx.

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 03:08:29 GMT

let's all get them!!!!

we shed what was left of our summer skin

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 20:55:25 GMT

so i'm sitting by the pool right now.. it's basically been just a bad, boring day for me. school starts tomorrow and i have absolutely no enthusiasm about going back. at least in the past i would be happy to go back and see people, but there aren't many people left worth seeing that i haven't already. i'm not sure why it is though that i reeeally don't want to go back this year, part of the reason is probably because i know it's my last year at north park, but i don't think that's the main reason. i just don't want to go. i'm sure most people share that with me though

yesterday was a lot of fun. even though it took us forever to get in, the paris fair was fun. i actually think us trying to sneak in and be stealthy was probably the most fun about the fair.. but the ferris wheel was pretty slammin'. williams afterwards was an interesting experience (tara 2tally stole a soup spoon after having worn it on her nose most of the time). it's also an exciting time when everyone you're with starts phoning each other's cell phones and as usual, the lookout brought about hotties, with whom most of us now have multi person dates. we are all in love.

so the summer was a fun one, although it always feels like i could have done more.. but in truth, with the way we plan things, we realistically couldn't. there are some things coming later in the year that i'm looking forward to. eg. florida, dan's halloween party, lyndsey's parents leaving a couple of times, the first early dismissal/day off we get from school (that had better be very soon), my birthday on a saturday, and christmas of course.  this shits not too far away now. i'm most excited about going to florida.. so hopefully some mo fo of a hurricane doesn't destroy sanibel right before i'm supposed to go.

anyways i will leave you with a photo of what is going to be in my near future, and which was a highlight of my summer for sure.

the time has come the walrus said

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 02:50:13 GMT

one week away, one week too soon. i will not say anything else.

today i worked from 10:30- 9. pretty gay because i was in a really bad mood from 5 to about 8. i kept thinking in my head different ways to blow up the pharmacy without anyone ever knowing it was me. at least i got to eat my lunch outside today, i guess.

babysitting miles on saturday was amazing. it just further pushed me into wanting to have a baby which i have unnaturally obsessed over for the last 16 years of my life pretty much. he was adorable and slept in my arms for at least a good hour. i was totally his favourite because i got him to laugh and he pretty much licked my face. that shows love, love and nothing else. so basically, ima buy me a baby in a couple o' years and name him finnigan haracio ezekiel. no, i'm not that mean, i'll just use two of those really awesome names.

tomorrow me and my ma have our first visit to the salon together, salon/spa/shwhatever place. we bought some kind of package thing, so tomorrow we get a haircut, shampoo, some kind of deep conditioning treatment and some other crap, plus a complimentary beverage. i must admit, the beverage is why i bought the whole thing. i mean come on, too good. anyways.. after that i guess i'll be lazy until its time to go to work. i seriously hate it there, although i think i just hate working with ray because he's such a homo and a half. he pretty much has a panic attack anytime i leave the front counter for more than ten seconds. he really needs some meds of his own.

so i hear 'people' are drinking 'special' drinks on thursday. k. danielle and lyndsey will be getting drunk (maybe doreen? i think she said she wouldn't be home) anyways.. i may join if i don't feel like complete crap, which judging by the number of sugar pills i have left.. i will definitely feel sick that day. oh the joys of predictability.

um. bye.

for you, my lesbian lovers.

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 17:16:35 GMT

donkey konga!

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 03:29:27 GMT

lyndsey and danielle, you guys missed out, although dan you did look like you may not have been feeling well and if such is the case i do hope you are currently feeling better my friend.

so i think kad (ya, i made us a custom short form) all agree donkey kongas are frigging fun and shaggy rulz. the fire we just literally wrapped up was fun. we once again came up with a couple of tv show ideas. i will outline them now for you. the first one consists of a family, an adult who is raising children who are clones of herself. all of the clones have deformities because the cloning went wrong. one will have no eyes and no nose, the other no limbs, and one has red hair. as you may have guessed, yes the redhead is the outcast who constantly struggles to be as popular as her limbless and eyeless-noseless sisters. the second show is a reality series about us trying to get to hollywood to get these shows on the air. it will contain wacky real life scenarios such as us pumping gas, earning money in the prairie provinces for food, sleeping in trailer parks, being chased by bears in bc, taking a wrong turn into the yukon, building a drug tunnel into the us, and other various comical situations. we also figure it will be constant promo for our band which has always been our main concern in life. without a successful rock group, why live?

i would like other tv show ideas not to also die away, since when we get to hollywood all if them WILL be a success. so please jot done any added ideas for samara n' me about samara and rachel rooming together in an apartment, and the hit show spaceship earth! featuring a clay model of the planet earth and a spcaeship made out of tinfoil. i also don't see why we can't have an anime show thats a complete rip-off of sailormoon, pokemon, digimon, dragon ball-z and whatever else them japan folks make.

that is all.
oh and port dover tuesday.. and wedding crashers monday.
that is all.

kate

my idea

you're a nut, crazy in the coconut!

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 04:19:22 GMT

hmm.. so i effing worked 7 hours today, but even though i bitched endlessly about having to go it wasn't too bad. i just hate when work phones, calls me by the wrong name, and then asks me to come in early for them when i've just gotten out of bed. it's gay. gay. gay. GAY. anywho.. port dover tuesday? i would like some further details peas and thank you.

today (saturday) will most likely suck, a lot, because 3/4 of my (real) friends are not going to be home and doreen usually finds cooler people than me to chillax with, plus i'm not too sure how much of a donkey kong konga fan she would be. perhaps i will ask. i will say this though, doorface, i am also retarded with my money, meaning even though there isn't really a lack of it, i don't want to spend it on stuff i don't either need or really want and so i end up going fewer places and having fewer pieces of crap. i still, however, would like to have a pet penguin named georgio who is trained to do fancy dives into my pool. that is all.

i wish i was going to michigan today. i really do. i love shopping there an endless amount and i do enjoy auntie anne's pretzels very much. one day perhaps the band will be able to venture there, although because of the nature of our driving skills, it might be safer if we don't.

here are some things we should consider planning better for next summer (i know, thinking ahead too far, but that's what i do). we will book a campsite the first day reservations are available and we will stay in a yurt. we should also better plan wonderland trip, picnics, drunken moments, a roadtrip somewhere, anywhere, we should fly kites, blow bubbles, play with chalk on sidewalks, makeout in an elevator, discover more retardly awesome movies, go to the drive-in, plan a super extreme version of scavenger hunt, invent a teleportation device, grow beards, grow a cstftb4lhsttupc chia pet, start a potato farm, get ants in our pants, paint a pretty mural, dance in the rain, have a costume party, and get pregnant. okay, so many of these are things we can still do this summer, but i'd like for us to start planning how not to be unorganized right now. next summer mught be the last with all of us together :( :( :( so i want it to be forgotten because we got too t'd and to stoned. k? kewl.

um i also think we should have a band photoshoot. it only seems appropriate.

thank you for your time and consideration,
l-o-v-e love is forever baby
kate.

cut from the sugar ray team.

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 14:26:15 GMT

i have really only one thing i would like to say and that is: LET'S EFFING ACTUALLY PLAN A REAL PICNIC SOON. i believe talked abou having one since warm weather hit so i figured it might actually be nice to have one before it has a chance to go away.

food i associate with picnics: watermelon, grapes, crackers & cheese, juice boxes, sandwiches, and you.

alright, so now that that's out of the way and i'm the only one of you freaks probably even awake, i would just like to say PARTY AT DANIELLES!!!!!!!!!!! and everyone's invited.

P.S. dan- i expect deluxe treatment. okay. we're talking futon AND a sleeping bag. oh, that's delux.

hey look, i pulled a jesus.

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 04:45:48 GMT

you thought i was dead?!?! HOW DARE YOU! well i was, and you guessed it, i pulled a jesus and came back to life except unlike him i have infinity life supply now just like when i used to cheat in mario. what can i say about the past week? i fucking hated it, ya that's right. this summer so far= pretty much crap. i'm not enjoying myself and i'm not excited for life. except for tonight because i definitely was about to hookup with that williams server, doreen and danielle and also wore every headband danielle owns. that was cool. everything else sucked.

so let's schedule girls. here is my work schedule for the next week.
saturday- zippo.
sunday- zilch
monday- 9-1 + a really lame lunch with gramgram
tuesday- zero
wednesday- 9-1
thursday- 9-1
friday- 4-9 eff that shit.

now you know and can make your marvelous plans for all the times im still working. k? kewl. no really though, it would be nice to actually spend a fraction of my summer with you guys. i'd like to figure out a plan for wonderland still, whcih is proving to be difficult. my daddy said we'd go to the pinery and beach it so thats coo' and we're most def going to do a trip to michigan with the famdamily. did i mention weezer's tomorrow because WEEZER IS TOMORROW!
weeeeeeeeeeeee.

um. i don't know what i was going to say. right. but hey, canada's also on the list to be attacked! so watch out for that tree! i mean, terrorist! really though, isn't that scary that we really don't have any control over them killing innocent people? but i guess if the united states does it, its ok.

im tired. bye.

cinderally, cinderelly, night and day it's cinderelly.

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 03:34:01 GMT

(this started as a simple reply to ashley's comment that ran way long and off track.)

i care about my house too much and my parents stuff to leave everything dirty. i'm not sure why everyone else thinks it's so weird i cleaned up. ya it was his fault, but i couldn't stand seeing the way our stuff was treated and what it looked like so i did something about it, well as much as i could because otherwise it would still look like that and my mom would have to clean it up. that would be completely unfair to her and just be one more added thing, plus i think you might clean up broken glass shards outside if you knew your little sister was probably going to want to play out there the next day, and the filthy pool she would want to swim in. it sucked cleaning up, but i absolutely did not do any of this for me brother if that's what you guys think. i did this for my parents because i love them and they deserve to come home to the best house possible, it really should be exactly as they left it, which was pretty much perfect but its not so i did whatever i could.

and my brother will be lucky not to get kicked out after this, but i really don't look at him as a complete asshole. he feels like shit about what he did and could see everything going wrong as he was doing it, but there wasn't a hell of a lot he could do anymore. i'm mad at him for having people over in the first place, and mad that he obviously knew what could/inevitably would happen and didn't really care. but i do know he cares about my family enough to want to kick himself out of the house right now (he wants to teach himself a lesson).

so all in all, this entire weekend was basically shit for me, not because i fucked anything up, but because a bunch of drunk assholes did and that makes me mad. and so we learn one more lesson about alcohol: it's only good when trying to drug strangers at bars or parties.

unfortunately i work 4 days this week including friday (ahhhhhh) so unless you guys come see me during the day or on tuesday if my mood is good enough, you may have to live without my witty repartee until the weekend. i love you guys for trying to get me to come out even though i really just wanted to passout on my bed and cry at that point. maybe we'll try a different scavenger hunt this time. katie annand mysterious riddle style. i only wish i had a transporter device so i could show up at each location mysteriously when you found them. *sigh* one day lauraalex annandwank will build me one and life will be grand. hey they're bound to combine into one super annoying smart human one day and invent cool shit and new pokemon/star wars planets.

anyways i got off track somewhere talking about transporters which yes, i am pissed about right now. because while scientists waste their time looking for cures to diseases that kill millions, i can't be nearly as mysterious as i want to be and that seems really unacceptable to me. so, i'll just wrap this up by apologizing if i was too whiny or bitchy unnecessarily to anyone (aka. lyndsey wank) i'll see you guys one day when i crawl out of hiding AND DOREEN YOU OWE ME 12 DOLLARS. well 11 is my dads and 1 is mine because for some reason i gave you a tonnie for one dollar. then shortly after realized that made no sense. no sense at all. anyways pay up bitch. KIDDING. no really i want the money in a big brown envelope tomorrow, placed under the door mat which i'm pretty sure i don't have.

k, i have a really hard time not rambling on. so.. BYE.

i awake to find no peace of mind.

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 02:48:32 GMT

so my parents went away for the long weekend to chicago because they actually really deserve a trip away from us... unfortunately my brother can't stand letting everything stay alright, so he had a party and pretty much wrecked most of our backyard. it gives me this really sick feeling inside that's really hard to take. i finally got fed up and was bascially having a breakdown, so i just phoned and asked my grandparents to come over today. his friends burned the cement somehow, like actually burned it.. broke one of our nice lounge chairs, 2 of our nicer lawn chairs, my little sisters chair, two solar-power lanterns, shattered bottles all over the patio and filled the pool pretty much with dirt. this is just outside.. inside was just dirty and a mess, luckily nothing i've noticed got broken in here. i'm just really pissed off that he has so little respect for my parents that he would let this happen to their stuff. i feel like shit for not having called my grandparents last night to break it up before it got bad.. but there's nothing i can do now.

i'm not going to mention anything to my parents until they actually get home or it would ruin their whole trip. theres a chance kevin might actually get kicked out of the house this time. i talked to him on the phone for a while and he's contemplating packing up his stuff before they get back. my grandparents think he might get kicked out too.. its so weird.

i feel like shit right now, i'm tired from getting about 5 hours of sleep and spending all day cleaning everything plus just knowing how bad the house is makes me feel sick. heather comes home tomorrow whoch im happy about because i miss her already. it'll be something to keep my mind off of all this.

i am lame.

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 03:31:20 GMT

i started reading some of my entries from last summer and find them weird. i'm trying to remember why i either sounded really happy or sad, apparently one reason was at the time there was a possibility that i'd be moving to windsor, or at least the rest of my family. this sort of stuff has happened a lot in the past, and everytime lyndsey would tell me 'you're not going to end up moving, just like every other time' and i'd say 'no they're really serious this time, i'm scared.' and i would be, i'd be terrified because even though there was probably never a huge chance, knowing there was even a small chance made me nervous and afraid to leave everyone and everything behind that's been a part of me since i was born. i can't imagine ever having to say goodbye to any of you guys and in a way it's not me going to university that is scary, it's everyone else moving on at the same time and leaving me behind that scares me the most. i was lucky enough to find the most amazing friends in highschool, that came right from my elementary school. i feel this immense comfort with you guys, like i can be who i really am and i don't have to hide anything. i'm allowed to feel like shit or be happy, or scared, or noisy or completely silent. i've met other people who are fun to be with, but no one else like you guys (obviously referring to the band).

i'm scared right now, for my best friend and for me too i guess. i'm scared about her not getting better and i'm scared about how i'll feel if it ever gets any worse. i don't know if i've been there for her enough, i want to be, but i never feels like anything i do is enough. i wrote in an entry about how i was upset, and lyndsey helped me realize that by that time next year.. which is about right now.. those things wouldn't mean anything to me anymore. and she was right, they don't. i just never realized how much things would change and how i'd be more concerned with more serious things.. and now i wish i was sad for a stupid reason, like thinking my parents are jerks and that i'd always be alone. part of me becoming less stupid and more responsible was great.. i feel like i know who i am now, but on the other hand it just opened my eyes to things that are harder to deal with. i guess i thought before that we were immune to ever actually feeling real pain. i wish that were still true.

i wish right now i could close my eyes and make everything perfect for the people i love. i feel like somehow i lucked out with my life and it's not fair. my family isn't perfect, but they make me feel safe, like i'll always have them to support me and keep me going even if i don't feel like going anymore. and i don't have as many emotional problems as others too i guess, i have problems any regular girl my age would, but they're all ones that can go away with a upswing in my mood. i feel like i don't really deserve all this somehow and my friends deserve every second of it.

you guys are the greatest thing that ever could have happened to me, without you i'd always be emo and sitting alone in the cafeteria wishing i could just disappear. you're all amazing to me and you're amazing people in general. i think it probably sounds corny, but i'm so proud of you, for the kind of people you are.

thanks for always making me laugh and letting me cry.
-sorry if the was too emo for you to handle-

your exclusive triangle player, kathy.

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 23:32:37 GMT

is your refrigerator running? because if it is, i bet it runs just like you. very homosexually.

i don't know why i am posting this, i just felt like it.
kewl, lyndsey's home. TOMORROW TORRRRRONTOOOO.

you think you're some hawt shit, boi.

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 03:32:26 GMT

exam time. i think almost everyone else cares more than i do about it, maybe not. i just don't care at this point anymore.. now that i've written the bio exam everything else will seem easy.

i'm excited that it's pretty much already summer holidays, but then again i'm working a crapload and i know i'll hate that when it starts. july is going to be a crazy month for work.. but i guess the money will be nice for a change. i'm looking forward to shopping in toronto friday, even if right now its kind of screwed up for danielle. we'll fix it though and then it'll be a fun time. apparently ashley wants to spend time in china town. i don't know why. also, i have the house basically to myself saturday since kevin sleeps in forever/leaves so that'll be nice if some peeps come over. WE COULD SO GET T'D LOLLLZERZ.

BTW: dinner/movie once again postponed until later in the summer when we actually haven't seen each other for a while. it makes more sense + gives us more time to coordinate ourselves i guess.

hopefully lyndz will be home soon so she can actually sort of start enjoying summer for a change. i think i'd actually go insane being in a hospital all that time, i commend her for not going on a murderous rampage at this point.

i'm still looking for that special someone to knock me up, i had an offer from brandon, but i was hoping it would be someone i see more than once every 8 months. i still don't know who though. i'll definitely work on it though. so that's my summer goal, anyone else have any? last summer doreen gained 200 pounds, but sadly, over the last year she has shed that extra weight and now has a boyfriend named Seth something. i made him up, i really should remember his last name. but i don't.

anyways, this couldn't have been anymore pointless.

g'night - kathy.

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 23:50:48 GMT

i don't even know why i'm updating.

-school's almost over, it actually feels like it already is and for some reaosn we keep going
-the first weekend of july my parents go to chicago for 4 days, the kids go to my grandma's. um let's 2tally get t'd
-the next weekend WEEZER. scratch the sad panda picture

my summer goes pretty much blank after that, hopefully i don't have to work every other effing day. that would blow.
my summer project is to get pregnant and fat and come back to school a beached whale ready to go into labour.
i will start asking random guys i see at school/in the middle of nowhere if they would like to father my child.
i expect to get a lot of negative responses, but i'm going to stick to the plan and everything will be just fine.
i'm going to try to be more appealing to guys by being a skanky hoetard and talking about getting/being t'd and how high i always am.
people will like me then right?
k, good.

i guess the last thing to say is that i am posting pictures exclusively for ashley's sake, although i can't prevent all the other crazies from viewing them... especially since i have like 5 friends on lj. crrrazy.

kathy.